Hey, how are you doing?

Honestly, how have you been? I genuinely hope everyone is coping and holding up well no matter how trying things can get.

It has been ages since I last wrote anything - be it on my blog or my journal. I honestly miss writing, so here I am making time to write something.

I have embarked on the journey of a working adult last April, so it has been almost two months now, but it honestly feels like I have been working for two years - I might have exaggerated it, but you get my point. Challenging, testing, exhausting, all at a whole different level, one I have never experienced before. There was one point last month where I was so stressed I cried at the office AND I felt like quitting, which I have never felt before in my entire life. Thinking back, yes I was in a pretty bad shape.

But, I am coping. I am taking each day as a learning process, one day at a time. It is a very difficult thing to do - not letting pressure/situations you are in get to you. It is equally tough to persevere and keep moving forward when you feel like everything in the universe is going against you. But it is not impossible, and you can make it through, and you will. And then things will be tough again, you will struggle again, and you will make through it all again. As you move along, you will grow as a person. So persevere, take everything constructively, and allow yourself to grow. (Writing this as a reminder to myself too)

I am extremely fortunate too to be blessed with amazing colleagues at my workplace. Having them around, a lot of things becomes bearable. I like my office too, and driving in the morning to work is not as bad as I thought it would be. The sunrise sky is always gorgeous - and I have always found the sky comforting.

I guess my point is - things are not as bad as they may seem/we choose to believe. More than often when we are swamped with problems and obstacles, our sight is clouded. And all that we are capable of seeing are our problems. Find ways to clear that clouded sight - surround yourself with positive people, focus on things that are within your control, change your perspective/how you see things, seek the good in people, and most importantly seek guidance and strength from the One who controls everything. (Writing this as a reminder to myself too)

If you are going through rough patches, you will make it through. And good things await you, no matter how unbelievable that may sound.



Love,
Filzah R.

Familiarity

My days have been rather confusing as of late, so today I decided to take a walk down the path I usually take - to work, to classes, to the city. I guess I was trying to seek that feeling of familiarity because I wanted to get away from the unfathomable series of strange emotions, whatever they are, that I have been experiencing. I brought along my camera and took photos of the familiar buildings, junctions, and pedestrian crossing lanes, so I can remember better. Also, because I have missed taking photos using a real camera (been using my iPhone as the substitute).

If any of you curious souls out there are wondering what do I wake up to and how does my neighbourhood look like here in Melbourne, the photos above would be a good help to your imagination.


I like walking alone here. Like I genuinely enjoy walking alone here. It gives me clarity and a sense of reassurance. It also reminds me of the important things I sometimes forget. Today I am reminded that:

1. Patience is truly a virtue.
2. Never give in to anger and rage.
3. There is always beauty if you know where to look at.
4. Remember people's kindness.
5. I am enough. Albeit flawed, I am whole. I am enough.


My goodness, I will terribly miss this city.



Love,
Filzah R.